I have the worts luck ever. Or that is what I have always thought.
I go to university, I eat what I want (I'm the only vegetarian in the family), I wear the clothes I like, I listen to the music I like, I read the books I like. My parents have never complain on my likes of forbid me to do something, but for some strange reason I have always thought I have the worst luck ever.
Sometimes I wish I could be doing anything else, sometimes I feel really frustrated by my desire of living in Japan. I spend a lot of time thinking how nice my life would be if I was able to live there, as it has all that I really like.
But all the people around me, friends, family, strangers, have the same opinion: I am so lucky.
I recently started changing my mind about my life and myself and wondering if I really am an unlucky person. Maybe, at the end I am not that unlucky.
I was able to fulfill my dream last April, I, after years of wishing it, finally could go to Japan. I spent two weeks in my ultimate wonderland and reached the maximum happiness. But that trip is not what I really want to talk about.
Even though Japan was my dream, my deepest, true dream was always been being able to se my favourite band in a live concert.
I have said it a lot of times, here and on my other social media, that my favourite band is A9 (Alice Nine before) and I express my love for them every time I can. I have been a fan of them since 2009 and in this recent trip to Japan, I was finally able to saw them perform. Eight years, I had to wait eight years for it, and the only thing I can say is it was the best moment of my life.
I have no words to express how happy I was that day. All that day had been horribly bad, I went through very distressing things and I was really in such sorrow because it was supposed to be the best day of my life! Here I thought again on how unlucky I was, I wondered why I never have just one day of full happiness, only one perfect day! But then it happened.
Although I was sort of sad and disappointed, the day ended just better than I expected. I am still trying to find a good way to say it but words are not enough to describe my feelings. What I saw that day, what I heard, even what I was able to get was just beyond my own dreams! You will not believe how much I cried that day, I had never cried that much in my life, but I am also sure I had never been so happy. All the time during and after the concert my heart was just so full with joy!
I came to the conclusion that I need my bad luck to reach the state of lucky-person everyone says I have, I now really believe that everything have a reason to happen and that Universe is always helping us to get what we really desire, even if the circumstances are so distressing!
I am more than grateful with this experience and I certainly love A9 even more than ever, they changed my life when I first knew them and they changed it again on April 12th, 2017. I will never ever forget what I lived and will truly try to be more positive, stop thinking about bad luck! Because, how many persons do you know that were able to fulfill their biggest dream?
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| Yes, not only got the new album but also signed by Nao-shi♡ |
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| Thank you for every happy moment you have given to me in all these years♡ |
