Goodbye 2017

This year a lot of things happened in my life, some of them were bad and made me feel really depressed, but I don't want to start the New Year sad and that is why in this last post of the year I will focus only in the positive things that happened. Let's start!

J a p a n ♡

Obviously, the most important thing that happened this year was my trip to Japan. It had always been my dream since I was 8 years old, and I finally accomplished it!

                

A9 ♡

I know I have wrote it everywhere a hundred times but seriously, seeing my favourite band in a live was the best thing ever happened to me, I still cannot describe how amazing that moment was, and I am incredibly grateful for that day, I will remember it forever as one of the best experiences of my life.



T a r j a ♡

But not only I got to see my favourite band, but also to meet in person my favourite singer: Tarja Turunen! She has the most beautiful voice in the world and she is also such a nice person! I am incredibly happy I got to tell her how special she is to me! Really, thank you Tarja.♡

Those were definitely the best moments of 2017 but not the only ones:
♡I'm happy I got to wear Lolita more this year and could sell and buy stuff to have a more comfortable wardrobe.
♡I met a great people at Tarja's concert and I'm really glad because they are such a nice fandom! I can't wait to meet them again!

♡I read more than any other year in my life after not being too much into literature for a depression, and I really loved doing it again! I hope to read even more books in the future!
♡Also, I went out more with friends! I want to go out more frequently and stop being so anti-social, lol.
♡Last but not least, I got really nice grades at University and got a lot of compliments in my last project, which made me really happy and feel like I'm in the right path.

I really hope 2018 to be a better year! To try new things, to improve my health habits (both physical and spiritual), to share with new people and maybe come back to Japan? We'll see... For now, I wish everyone a Happy New Year!

Thank you for being born.♡

At this moment, in Japan is already July 5th. And? Why is it important? Why is it so important for me? Well, on this day my favourite human, the most important person for me was born.

It will sound ridiculous for many, how is it that the person you care the most about does not even know you? But believe me, he has given to me true happiness that nobody never gave me.

It is not a secret my favorite band is A9 and definitely not another one about my love for Shou, the vocalist. I still remember perfectly the firs time I heard and watched a video of Alice Nine (yes, they were Alice Nine before) and I immediately fell totally in love with them!♡ The music, the aesthetic, the video, the lyrics: everything was just perfect! I have never in my life liked a band so much! And I never thought they would become an incredibly important part of my life.

Since that very first moment Shou caught my eye, I found his voice just so beautiful for this world and when I discovered he was the writer of all the lyrics I felt even more inspired by him! How can a person write such magical, delightful words?♡ Lyrics in music have always been so important for me –that is one of the reasons why I dislike such current music with no feeling– and every song he writes is just full of feeling, full of pictures. I dare say I consider him a modern poet of our time; i have cried, smiled and laughed with his lyrics, and even more! They are just a huge bomb of feelings for me!

This year is even more important because finally, after following him for eight years (eight!!) I was able to see him in person, to hear his voice in a live!♡ And I already talked about the concert and how I felt but this is my most precious memory and do not want to forget it! Every day since that day I smile back at the image of him singing, talking, smiling in front of me!♡

I express you my gratitude not only for that beautiful moment, but also for all others that you, with the power of your music, has given to me. Every song, every lyric, every video, every concert and every program fill my every-day with joy and grace.♡

Thank you for your smile. a smile that seems like a ray of sunshine passing through the gray clouds, a smile with a sweetest smell than a thousand flowers, a smile that feels like the fresh scent of a summer adventure into the woods, a smile that warms my heart like a thousand suns. The smile that blows sadness away. Because just one picture of your smile is enough for me to be happy the rest of the week.♡

Thank you for the silly moments, my Devil King♡ thank you for the care you have for your friends and the fans, thank you for the effort you make every day to prove your best. Thank you for being yourself and do what makes you happy, because if you are happy, I am happy.

It is hard for me not being able to go to every single of your concerts (even if that is what I desire the most in life!) but wherever I am, I will always love you and support you, no matter what, because you changed my life. I cannot imagine how my life would be if I would have not known you, until this day you still are my number-one motivation in life, my inspiration, my light in the dark and my love.♡

And this is just a very little part of all I wanted to say, but I cannot find the words to express correctly all my feelings and gratitude for all you have done to me, at least I would like to say: thank you for being born.♡

将さん お誕生日おめでとうございます！♡ 産まれて来てくれてありがとうございます♡

Living the dream

I have the worts luck ever. Or that is what I have always thought.

I go to university, I eat what I want (I'm the only vegetarian in the family), I wear the clothes I like, I listen to the music I like, I read the books I like. My parents have never complain on my likes of forbid me to do something, but for some strange reason I have always thought I have the worst luck ever.

Sometimes I wish I could be doing anything else, sometimes I feel really frustrated by my desire of living in Japan. I spend a lot of time thinking how nice my life would be if I was able to live there, as it has all that I really like.

But all the people around me, friends, family, strangers, have the same opinion: I am so lucky.

I recently started changing my mind about my life and myself and wondering if I really am an unlucky person. Maybe, at the end I am not that unlucky. 

I was able to fulfill my dream last April, I, after years of wishing it, finally could go to Japan. I spent two weeks in my ultimate wonderland and reached the maximum happiness. But that trip is not what I really want to talk about.

Even though Japan was my dream, my deepest, true dream was always been being able to se my favourite band in a live concert.

I have said it a lot of times, here and on my other social media, that my favourite band is A9 (Alice Nine before) and I express my love for them every time I can. I have been a fan of them since 2009 and in this recent trip to Japan, I was finally able to saw them perform. Eight years, I had to wait eight years for it, and the only thing I can say is it was the best moment of my life.

I have no words to express how happy I was that day. All that day had been horribly bad, I went through very distressing things and I was really in such sorrow because it was supposed to be the best day of my life! Here I thought again on how unlucky I was, I wondered why I never have just one day of full happiness, only one perfect day! But then it happened.

Although I was sort of sad and disappointed, the day ended just better than I expected. I am still trying to find a good way to say it but words are not enough to describe my feelings. What I saw that day, what I heard, even what I was able to get was just beyond my own dreams! You will not believe how much I cried that day, I had never cried that much in my life, but I am also sure I had never been so happy. All the time during and after the concert my heart was just so full with joy!

I came to the conclusion that I need my bad luck to reach the state of lucky-person everyone says I have, I now really believe that everything have a reason to happen and that Universe is always helping us to get what we really desire, even if the circumstances are so distressing! 

I am more than grateful with this experience and I certainly love A9 even more than ever, they changed my life when I first knew them and they changed it again on April 12th, 2017. I will never ever forget what I lived and will truly try to be more positive, stop thinking about bad luck! Because, how many persons do you know that were able to fulfill their biggest dream?

Yes, not only got the new album but also signed by Nao-shi♡

Thank you for every happy moment you have given to me in all these years♡

Wish in the blood

Bueno, había estado traumada con la canción "Wish in the blood" desde hace algunos meses y quería sabes lo que decía, pero al no encontrar la traducción por ninguna parte, decidí hacerla yo, junto con un pequeño video. Ojalá les guste. ♡

Deseo en la sangre

Aparentemente la hinchazón mayor

Por debajo de mi delicada piel

Es una creciente sensación de incomodidad, y es difícil para mí soportar

Porque es muy lindo

El mundo no volverá ni por un segundo

Arrodillándose ante la realidad

El día de la luna llena provoca mareos

Sin abrir la puerta ya

Vi la luz que llegó a través de la grieta

“Las lágrimas que gotean de color rojo oscuro”

No importa lo que pase

La noche se convertirá en día como debería

“Ella era una chica normal”

O eso era lo que los vecinos decían

Su papá y su mamá han sido cubiertos por la tierra

Así la audiencia de las noticias subió

Una vez más la chica pide su deseo

Escupiendo a la realidad

El día de la luna llena provoca mareos

Aunque su jadeante voz me atormenta

Todavía se puede escuchar

Extendiéndose por el espinoso camino

Una diosa se puede ver

A través del cristal de la ventana

El día de la luna llena provoca mareos

Si tan sólo pudiera haber llorado con torpeza

Si tan sólo los hubiera perdonado en ese momento

Si tan sólo hubiera habido alguien en el que ella se podría haberse apoyado

En ese cuerpo que no sabe nada

¿La noche se convirtió en día?

Traducción Charlotte AN♡

Introduction.

For first, I'll just say some things about me and why I decided to have a blog.

I don't like people too much and I'm very reserved but I'm very open-minded, I accept people with different views of life and all its aspects, I love alternative fashions and I admire people who don't care about 'what society would say...' for being different from the rest.

I'll write about some daily adventures, outfits, dolls and maybe reviews, who knows? About my thoughts, ideology, beliefs, books I like, doramas I watch and music I listen to.

One of the reasons I opened a blog was that I decided to become formally a Lolita, I met Lolita fashion since I was 11 but never thought about wear it until 2013, when I saw the amount of Lolitas in Mexico thanks to the visit of Misako Aoki. I hope to wear it more frequently and buy more things to get soon a pretty Lolita wardrobe.♡ This blog may help me to catalogue this new phase of my life.

At least, I hope everything go well and don't forget to update my blog... (like in my firs blog, I don't even know what happened to it...) Well, welcome to my Wonderland.